does this heal the pain???

 

its the mind what makes us angry but its the heart which always makes me think of you saying yes you do care

Those six months were best moment of my life which will never be back....each and every thing i do makes me remind of her, i never thought i would b so close to someone in this way that i will not be able to erase the memory spent with her.Yes it is true she used to complain me i am not mature but i loved d way she care so i used to do those activities knowingly to b shouted and cared by her "yo nagar tyo nagar yeta naja uta naja" she always had love and care in her words.Now a days when i pass through the places we used to go her face shines like a twinkling star in my mind.
  The way she used to prepare me for college, lunch on a single plate which was full of very strong affection, a ride holdin each other hand "oa jado voyo k gorum mero pocket ma hand rakhna ta ani herna tero hand katti tato motu umhh hae:P" i used to think i am a stone-hearted guy i felt like nothing makes difference in my life but now i feel i was totally wrong. yes its true i show to others i am a stone hearted i have no feeling but when i do the activities her sweet shouting words whisper in my ears. I remember when she used to wake me up with a call "alxi motu ajai sutirako xito uth la aba 10 min mtra sutxu ni la".yes people say you are free now noone to shout but it was not a shout it was a care which i always miss. She always had a complain "dherai nakha na please hera kati motay voiskyo, hera hair kata na motu" 

i remember the day when she called me morning " oa ta nagarkot goko cha? umh chu malai kna nalageko?oa ta dhulikhel goko cha?umh cha molae logna prdoina ani aru kata re asking her frn kulekhani vnna khulekhani ah khulekhani goko cha ah chu ? ta molai kataii logdoinas ekloi janxas motay" Yes dat was the time in which i was not ready to take her now i am able i have everything work facilities but except her in my life. the time spent with her was soo soo memorable i cannot erase it till my last breathe.hours and hours on phone call late night msgin.Our relation was built up with attraction but it was built up wid a true love..
now a days when i am out on rain all body wet it makes me remind of a bike ride on a heavy rain fall every one watchin us and we rushin for the "papdichat" her favourite..
she had a power of changing someone's personality.
"oa dalli kissy didoinas umh :* :* kata diko ? umh akha ma :* yo chae forhead ma :* lips ma euta mtroi :*:*:* voyo umh..:)" I really miss it :'( I dont know what was the thing which made us apart , i think we were met to b close very close and break like a glass..yes i do miss her when i watch the movie the way she give a facial expression shines in my eyes" her sankhalu look eyes bit bend lips little bit bitten which was her cuteness i always wanted to see.i do miss her each and every day but i feel that she might get in trouble because of me so i control myself i control my mind but heart is one who always insist for it.
 

soooo many moments are there with her dis small page cannot hold all those things....
to be cont.....

what could i do and be.: feelings of awesome personality

what could i do and be.: feelings of awesome personality:    When i grow up life was a challenge to win marbles and its upon the time that i want to play on money..its dragging me on n i am on i...

feelings of awesome personality

   When i grow up life was a challenge to win marbles and its upon the time that i want to play on money..its dragging me on n i am on it but it seeks my blood that has been given my ancestors.....

i behold my memory...

let it be

i agggigated that i am not ok..they responded that tym was on

i missed these fuckin tym..and awating on my own..where there i'm seeing my mum...my dad..and the loved ones that i hav to care,,,,

thats not ur lyf if liv ur self...

live for those..who need ya

and they tell me yaht

u r ceeeping inside...

so up to when i do my lyf for risk for money

hahahhaha...

its spring less

proud to be Mahat

       Mahat is ekthariya Chhetri surname of Nepal having Khasa root.Historically, one of the Jumli Malla king in medieval time made his younger brother Dharma Malla chief of army staffs entitling him as MAHAT (meaning great). Afterwards, his descendants started writing Mahat as their surnames.At the time of the 1991 Nepal census it had a population of 4240 people living in 799 individual households. Most prominent population of Mahat can be seen in Mahat gaon of Jumla. Notable settlements of Mahats have been found in Jumla [Mahat Village Development Committee (Now falls under Chandan Nath Municipality)] Rukum, Parbat, Myagdi, Pokhara (Mahat gauda), Nuwakot (Kabilas and Kholagau), Tanahun, Kabhre (Pasthali), Bhaktapur, Lalitpur (Lele, Satdobato), Makwanpur (Hetauda), Charikot, and Ilam (Sangrumba,Hattidhunga,Khammang, Ilam municipality, Kholagaun). Mahats living in Lele of Lalitpur are believed to settle there from Valley Malla era, after khasa attack on Kathmandu led by Khas king Jitari Malla. Sporadically, they are also residing in places like Jhapa (Mechinagar/ Kakarbhitta, Sanischare, Damak), Sunsari (Dharan, Paanmara), Darchula (Marma, Duhun), Baitadi and outside Nepal in West Bengal (Bagrakot) and Assam in India.